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[sociopolitically]

I TOLD MYSELF, FOR SURE, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

maybe for you who live like you're in a dream,
dressed in gold and silk

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[corautnil]

in my defense, I'm much more high these days than I was as a youth. but also everything that happens these days is much more average and unmemorable compared to being locked in the basement or cruciod.

crucio'd?
crucioed.
no that looks wrong, too.

whatever.

[sociopolitically]

can you tell me what 'crucio' means before i reply to this?

[corautnil]

you already replied, you sod!

it's
well, it's qualified as an Unforgivable curse in the UK. I don't know about what it is here, but it's considered very illegal. the Cruciatus curse is used to torture people. forces excruciating pain on the target. long term exposure can lead to insanity, and I can confirm this to be probably true, if my manic behavior is anything to go by.

[sociopolitically]

i am not going to make light of this, you know.

that's awful. you were tortured as a child? sirius, shit. i'm so sorry.

[corautnil]

well yeah I assume anyone with half a brain wouldn't, but yes I do appreciate your ability to not mock me for it.

and it's not just as a child, considering it still happens, whenever I go home.

five minutes later

[sociopolitically]

move in with me. never go home.

[corautnil]

it's not that bad, I promise. I can handle it. once she's gone, it won't matter anyway. if I play nice, I can still use my family name for something good. maybe.

[sociopolitically]

it's not that i don't believe you can handle it, it's that i believe you shouldn't have to.

but okay, accepting your logic.
what would you use your family name for?
for example.

[corautnil]

fixing everything broken with wizard politics in the UK. most of it is just old, superstitious ways rather than anything productive of conscious of how our differences can strengthen us.

[sociopolitically]

i'm all for bridging differences, you know. it's my trademark, but sirius.
sometimes we have to focus on our own chasms first, before working on fixing those of others.

[corautnil]

what??? why? I'd rather deal with anything else

[sociopolitically]

i know.

but if you manage your own chasms, there's a greater chance that you'll succeed in fixing everything else.
and i really believe you're capable of both.

[corautnil]

if you think that at all, then you really don't know my mother or how my family works.

I suppose it's not really something a muggle would understand anyway.

[sociopolitically]

no, might be.

listen.
i didn't mean to imply you're to blame for the situation you're in.
you know i'd never think that, right?

[corautnil]

you wouldn't be the first if you did. it's fine. I'm used to it.

[sociopolitically]

it's not fine.
you don't have to pretend with me.

and you definitely don't have to get used to something like that around me.

[corautnil]

I'm already used to it, so it's nothing new to get used to.

I'm not pretending though, so I haven't any idea what you mean by that.