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[sociopolitically]

I TOLD MYSELF, FOR SURE, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

maybe for you who live like you're in a dream,
dressed in gold and silk

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[sociopolitically]

i am not going to make light of this, you know.

that's awful. you were tortured as a child? sirius, shit. i'm so sorry.

[corautnil]

well yeah I assume anyone with half a brain wouldn't, but yes I do appreciate your ability to not mock me for it.

and it's not just as a child, considering it still happens, whenever I go home.

five minutes later

[sociopolitically]

move in with me. never go home.

[corautnil]

it's not that bad, I promise. I can handle it. once she's gone, it won't matter anyway. if I play nice, I can still use my family name for something good. maybe.

[sociopolitically]

it's not that i don't believe you can handle it, it's that i believe you shouldn't have to.

but okay, accepting your logic.
what would you use your family name for?
for example.

[corautnil]

fixing everything broken with wizard politics in the UK. most of it is just old, superstitious ways rather than anything productive of conscious of how our differences can strengthen us.

[sociopolitically]

i'm all for bridging differences, you know. it's my trademark, but sirius.
sometimes we have to focus on our own chasms first, before working on fixing those of others.

[corautnil]

what??? why? I'd rather deal with anything else

[sociopolitically]

i know.

but if you manage your own chasms, there's a greater chance that you'll succeed in fixing everything else.
and i really believe you're capable of both.

[corautnil]

if you think that at all, then you really don't know my mother or how my family works.

I suppose it's not really something a muggle would understand anyway.

[sociopolitically]

no, might be.

listen.
i didn't mean to imply you're to blame for the situation you're in.
you know i'd never think that, right?

[corautnil]

you wouldn't be the first if you did. it's fine. I'm used to it.

[sociopolitically]

it's not fine.
you don't have to pretend with me.

and you definitely don't have to get used to something like that around me.

[corautnil]

I'm already used to it, so it's nothing new to get used to.

I'm not pretending though, so I haven't any idea what you mean by that.