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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ When he'd sent off his driver, they'd still been mid-conversation but in this life, risks are a given and when the only danger is disappointment and continuous loneliness, he's not afraid to chance it. There are worse things, he thinks. There has to be. In any case, Claude had chosen to play along and he's spent the small waiting time preparing drinks and dressing himself up just a fraction - black trousers, a long-sleeved t-shirt with a silvery Armani Exchange logo slapped across the middle. When he's home alone in the evening, his style is nonexistent - baggy jeans, baggy shirts, bare feet, nothing that constricts. It's not like he's got anyone around to complain about it.

When the car pulls up outside the warehouse, he pours two glasses of semi-expensive, Italian prosecco and sets them on a small, black tray, along with a bowl of salted nuts. He leaves the arrangement on the low stone table in the corner lounge - a section of his living room slightly separated from the rest, decked out with two comfortable chairs overlooking the vast darkness immediately outside the warehouse and the cityscape further out, glittering against the sky. It's a pretty view. The entire apartment is like that, of course, because he can't stand feeling boxed in. He flips on the small LED tealights scattered around the space - clusters of three, typically - and heads for the entrance just as the lift activates.

Claude steps inside from outside and suddenly, the room changes.

He pauses briefly in his step, looking at him. Living and breathing and throwing the otherwise silent status quo of his living space completely off its normal course. Breath stumbling for a split-second, he smiles very slightly and straightens himself. ]


No?

[ He gestures towards the living room area, partially hidden from sight by concrete walls. ]

So even socialists have preconceptions. [ He pauses a few feet away, looking Claude over maybe a little blatantly. He's a beautiful man, why wouldn't he. He raises one eyebrow at his deep, burgundy shirt - even he can see that it's a great colour on him - and the faint wrinkles in the fabric. ] Good thing you know how to party.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ When Claude walks past him, he catches the faint scents of spices in his cologne, something woody, a little contemplative. It's mixed with the more familiar sensory echoes of nightlife - alcohol, smoke, perfumes, people. He hasn't gone to the clubs the past year but the memories from before feel almost visceral, still, like he could shift back half a step and he'd be there once more, body and mind, in a different life. There's a quietness to the other man, though, that's definitely new. He's sought it out in other ways, yet in the people he surrounds himself with on a daily basis, that particular quality is rare. The world of politics is louder. Self-absorbed, hungry.

That, too, is human.

He follows behind the other man, hearing the familiar beeps of the elevator locks activating as he leaves. In addition to his guards, the area surrounding the warehouse is well-secured - the apartment itself, not so much. He doesn't want cameras in his life, after all, they'd be filming him more than anything else and that's not the kind of data he wants to collect.

Claude should, perhaps, have looked out of place amidst the sleek surfaces and glass exterior of his home but somehow, he doesn't. As he stands there in the small lounge area, the cityscape stretched out behind him in the distance, he looks more like something that's been missing. A necessary contrast. Jean Louis takes a seat by the table and takes one of the glasses - crystal flutes, a birthday gift from the youth party, back when he'd turned twenty - looking up at Claude over the edge. ]


You sound very certain. [ A small sip. ] Fear, perhaps not, but why not convenience? This is hardly the opposite.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ The crystal glitters as Claude tips it to drink, light playing across his face, the tip of his nose, cheekbones. His voice is soft, still, none of that righteous indignity from their earlier conversation back in Parliament, though there's that same sense of strength to his arguments, still. It only falters at the very end and that's understandable; talking about principles is always safer ground. Jean Louis watches him for another moment, his eyes narrowing a fraction in thought before he simply nods and puts the flute down. ]

All the same, the notion of value remains. It's there, it's an inescapable aspect of human nature. Behaviour, reward.

[ Claude understands the world from a kinder perspective, perhaps, from a place where softness doesn't get you killed and putting a value on others is a matter of indulgence, of... trust or comfort. They use the same words and maybe they even mean the same things - the difference, he thinks, is about whether they're yelling those words from within the depths of an abyss or from the top of a mountain. Hard to say what's preferable of the two. A mountain, after all, is no less dangerous.

An abyss is, perhaps, the lonelier option. He'll be visiting Sicily later in the year, true, but in that place, family's just another word for the same thing.

His voice softens almost imperceptibly: ]


Then, I should say - by not letting you leave, I'd be rewarding myself.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 12:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ When Claude leans forward, elbows on his knees, his shirt clings to the shape of his body, giving the impression of hard muscle - typically square if not exactly muscular - and leanness. There's warm skin beneath all that burgundy silk and Jean Louis' fingers twitch a little at the thought, a corresponding heat spreading in his belly. He could. He could. It's been a year and a year is no time at all. He shifts a little in his chair, barely more than a hint of movement. That's not how it translates, says Claude, speaking about a different economy, one that doesn't count where Jean Louis goes or if it does, it's seen as an illusion, a cover for what's actually true. He thinks they understand this about each other now; the fact that Claude's patient enough to describe it to him suggests as much.

It's not that he doesn't understand. He just didn't grow up with enough fantasies.

They're very close like this. Close enough for him to lean in, raising one hand to Claude's face, fingers tracing the line of his jaw gently. Their eyes lock briefly before he looks at his lips instead, instinctively, the same way you always look ahead towards your next destination. From there, he leans in the rest of the way and kisses him, just a quick touch of lips against lips, before he withdraws a few inches. He doesn't say anything, though he thinks he'd been planning to - his mind is suddenly, abruptly, preoccupied with the scent of the other man, the damp imprint of his lips against his own. For a moment, he forgets to breathe.

It's been only a year.

But that time has, all the same, gone.

He wonders about that small pause in Claude's speech before, like he didn't want to presume and of course he didn't, he wants to enact a law about consent. Though it doesn't matter to him in a general sense, right now he wonders curiously whether he should have asked, first, whether Claude would have expected that of him. Or whether perhaps their conversation was permission enough.

Such an odd but interesting world, the world of Claude Bérubé. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 12:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's a yes, one must presume, and the promise of more suddenly hits him with enough force to make his breath stumble out of him, Claude's mouth warm and insistent. He tastes prosecco on them both and there's something exhilerating about that idea, about the way parts of them become so similiar to be indistinguisable just by virtue of sharing such a simple thing. It's why sharing with people is hard, of course. Sometimes, it makes you blend and then, at the end when you separate again as is always the case, parts of you are inevitably lost in the process.

He's lost much of himself already. He's still here.

Eyes closing, he curls his hand against the nape of Claude's neck before following the small opening between his lips with the tip of his tongue. It's just a brief transition - as soon as he feels the other man give, he slips inside. He doesn't push too forcefully because literally no one wants to be drowned on the first kiss but he doesn't pull back quickly, either. Instead, he explores what he can easily feel of Claude's tongue, gliding over it, tasting the remnants of alcohol for a few seconds before the man's natural taste comes through.

He tastes like warmth. Softness. Inside and out, apparently.

His next breath is audible, a low moan from the very back of his throat. The urge to get more, to go deeper intensifies and he shifts again, his cock hardening quickly in his trousers. Curious and mostly on impulse, he runs his other hand up the inside of Claude's thigh slowly, inching inwards. You as well, it means, and it's a question and a command, both. He wants to feel him out, just to know. Are they following each other, still?

He likes the thought, for reasons he can't quite understand.

Undoubtedly, that too goes back to world views and perspectives. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 01:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Claude allows him - both his tongue filling his mouth and his hand, slipping up his thigh. Jean Louis immediately takes what he's offered. That's something you learn when you realise that nothing's permanent and very, very little freely given; if there's a chance, grab it.

Or a cock, in this case. He's no stranger to that, either.

Breathing hard into Claude's mouth, feeling him out, going a bit deeper, he runs his palm further in along the crease between his thigh and groin, reaching just a little to the side until the bulge of the other man's hard cock presses against his hand. He's definitely more than semi-hard at this point and so is Jean Louis; they are very much in sync, then, which feels not just fortunate but proper, as if anything else would have been an anomaly. They're still very new to each other, a small step up from strangers and the thought, consequently, is odd. It's not something one can expect and even so, his body seems to be expecting it, the sameness. As if to emphasise that train of thought, Claude runs his hand down his body, over his chest and midriff, all the way to his crotch, folding his hand over his cock as well.

His skin tingles beneath his clothes in the aftermath of Claude's touch. Here and there, ruined nerves twitch weirdly in response, the back of his left shoulder aching briefly. He rolls it, loosening the tension, though his focus barely even strays from Claude's hands, his mouth. His scent and the feel of him. It fascinates him, this togetherness and it's not just because he hasn't felt it for a long time.

It feels new.

Spreading his legs a little to give the other man space, he parts his lips and lets him explore as he wishes, feeling him out at the same time. His cock is big, bigger than average, too, and while he's no size queen, he isn't any less impressed by a big dick than most other men. Of course, Claude would be big, he thinks. He's got that energy to him. He's a man who dares to talk about feminism, consent, who dares to challenge power dynamics buried deep within the very core fabric of their society. It takes something. It takes balls.

And speaking of those.

Leaning into Claude's kiss, letting him fill out his mouth as he pleases, Jean Louis runs his hand further down, feeling out the length of Claude's cock, the heaviness of it, before he curves his hand around the outline of his balls. He holds them carefully for a moment (big, obviously - ah, he likes it when the math adds up) before withdrawing, breaking the kiss and releasing him to make eye contact. ]


Come. These chairs aren't that comfortable.

[ His voice sounds raw. He gets to his feet, his cock tenting his trousers rather visibly, and nods towards the bedroom. The frosted glass sliding door is visible from here, a faint blue glimmer of light fluttering across the floor from inside. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ They head for the bedroom and it feels almost normal for a moment, like something that's happened before. It echoes back, he realises, to something that never happened here in this apartment - it's older than that, older than this particular life and when Claude takes his hand, sweet and earnest and maybe a little nervous, too, his brain connects the dots (Emilia had been sweet and earnest and she would have taken his hand, too, and in turn he would have found a different kind of strength for her, an unusual kind). He pauses briefly in his step, his breath sticking in his chest in a painful manner, pointed and sharp. Oh, he thinks, glancing down at their linked hands.

Then, he leads Claude onwards to the bedroom, sliding the door open after only a short pause. He has shown no one his bedroom since Vincent left him. People rare see mine, says Claude, mirroring his thoughts and it's getting almost eerie, how easy it is to fall into step besides him in every way that matters.

Stepping inside, the feel of Claude's fingers between his own still lingering like a physical imprint against his skin, he doesn't turn on the lights. The lights from City shines from far off in the distance and the tall aquarium running the entire length of the wall opposite the bed makes the whole room feel underwater, light trailing across the walls and the floor, moving along with the life behind the glass. ]


They're private spaces.

[ He turns away, letting Claude enter as he likes. The closet space has been built into the walls and consequently, the room looks bare, aside from the bed with its white sheets. ]

I also haven't... [ He pauses. Re-thinks his words, realising that he can't figure out any better way to say it and saying it feels crucial, like falling into step once more, keeping that particular momentum alive. ] I haven't had anyone here for a while.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 03:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He can feel Claude taking in the room, the few, key decorations. There's a particular sort of silence associated with a stranger, taking in a strange space - inquisitive without lingering for too long, entertaining no favourites yet and no dislikes. Again, new. He turns fully, just as Claude steps up closer to him and they're face to face like this, the other man a few inches shorter. Jean Louis closes his eyes as Claude runs his fingers through his hair, feeling the strands align themselves according to his movements, whether he's willing them to lay down or to loosen. When he kisses him again, he swallows Claude's groan and takes him, pushing his tongue past his lips more forcefully, grabbing onto the back of his neck. He thinks about that, about Claude messing up his hair and opening himself, back and forth, back and forth, and there's something so inherently calming about it that he very nearly forgets why he hasn't invited anyone into his bed for the past year.

As soon as his other hand finds Claude's shirt, however, and he begins working the buttons open single-handedly, he remembers.

Despite what certain people think, Jean Louis has never been vain. It helps in many ways to be conventionally attractive and he's used that to his advantage to the full extent - and he plans on doing so, going forwards too. He just needs his skin to heal enough and he'll cover all traces of last year in ink, it'll look and be intentional and the power imbalance will right itself. All of that, yes, eventually. But tonight is not that. This is now.

And though he's undressed for many people since, the vast majority have been professionals with professional gazes.

Breaking the kiss, he uses both hands to finish opening Claude's shirt, letting the material fall to either side, revealing a flat chest (bare, no hair whatsoever - waxed, he'd say, if he were to guess) and small, hard nipples, his body firm but not very toned, like a man who takes care of himself without turning his body into any kind of project. It's nice. It goes well with the rest of him. Jean Louis steps closer, running one hand slowly up his midriff, spreading out his fingers. He flattens his hand in the middle of his chest right above his heart and slips it sideways, covering one, pink nipple underneath it. He rubs it slowly, circular motions, watching Claude's face. They don't know each other, after all. Everything's a matter of trial and error.

He's wearing a shirt. He'll need to release the other man to take it off and right now, he's leaving them unbalanced.

He's aware. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Off comes the shirt after only a little while, Claude's breathing audible between them, small puffs of breath that skitter across Jean Louis' chin and makes his own skin prickle in turn. He's pretty, Claude. If he'd cared a little less about his training, about upping his own strength in the wake of last year, Jean Louis would have looked a lot like him now, body-wise. He gives Claude's nipple another small rub, his gaze slipping along the lines of his shoulders, neck, arms. There's a spot right beneath his ear that he'd like to lick.

Claude, meanwhile, steps up to him, licking his lips and leaving them glistening. He looks up at him, pushing his hands flat against his stomach and that small touch alone makes his spine tingle, want pooling in his belly. It's mixed, however, with a sense of... apprehension. He doesn't know this body, not fully. Not as well as he did. He's never had sex like this.

The thought actually makes his face heat up and he's suddenly quite glad of his complexion which at the very least hides some of it. He tends to blush along the bridge of his nose for some unfathomable reason - like his nose isn't visible enough as it is. Sighing, he looks Claude in the eyes, seeing the small hint of a challenge there, gentle but firm. Let's go from here, it says, and that means the next step is his. Has to be.

Without stepping out of touching-distance, he frees his hands, grabs the hem of his shirt and pulls it over his head. The movement isn't entirely smooth; his left shoulder has mobility issues, still, and annoyingly, he has to compensate with the other side. He rolls the shirt up in a ball and throws it towards a small stool in the corner, uncaring whether or not it hits its mark, so long as it's out of his way. Then, he straightens, looking at Claude through the bangs of his hair, slightly unruly now from being jostled. His front isn't the worst part of it, though the ribs on his right side are jotted with burn marks, some long and thin, others circular. There's a scar, a narrow cut, down the side of his left abdomen, too, which is just plain ridiculous and pitiful. In his opinion, they didn't have to stitch it at all but alas, he'd been in no mental state to argue the finer details of his medical assistance.

Exhaling slowly, he lets himself look at Claude, forcing his focus out and away from himself. He runs one hand slowly down the side of his shoulder, over his upper arm and back up, along the length of his neck before he folds his fingers against the back of his head. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He stands there, not as bared as he could be but certainly more than he's been for a long time. Then, Claude is on him, hands mapping out his upperbody almost greedily (hungrily) and it resonates within him so clearly that his shoulders visibly lower, his muscles relaxing. This is right, this is known. He wants to slip his other hand around Claude's waist and pull him closer and when Claude leans up and presses their foreheads together, so close that their breaths mingle and the heat of his body feels like his own, he simply gives in to himself and does it. Folding his hand against the small of Claude's back, he pulls him in, close enough that their bodies are flush up against each other. His body screams for more, like a storm rising suddenly and violently in an otherwise silent space and he makes a rough noise in his throat, tilting his head sideways and bending down to get that small spot beneath Claude's right ear.

As he mouths at the other man's neck, he manages: ]


Whatever you want, Claude, you can have.

[ The other man's name feels as soft and gentle on his tongue as everything else about him. It's amazing. He wants to drown in him. He wants to be eaten up by him and just like that, they are once more aligned with each other. Equally hungry. Equally starved, perhaps, as well. He runs his hand down the back of Claude's trousers, over his arse, grabbing onto him through his trousers and squeezing.

His own cock is definitely hard enough to make him feel lightheaded, particularly as he shifts closer, rubbing up against the bulge in Claude's trousers hard, insistently. He wants to get him into bed and feel him take up space here, maybe even claim a bit of it for himself and distantly, he's aware that ultimately, these are more pieces that he won't get back, but all of that is just pain and pain is easy.

Yeah. They really should get to bed. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-14 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His nipples feel hard and overstimulated in the best of ways, even as Claude draws away, pushing him back slightly (there's that strength again, even in the most literal sense and yes, indeed, he's hungry now, he's very, very hungry). Jean Louis shifts away, watching as Claude heads for the bed, muscles in his upper back working as he undoes the rest of his clothes - trousers, shoes and socks - whilst his briefs hang on, clinging to the outline of his hard cock in a way that makes him seem naked even whilst wearing them. Jean Louis watches him, lets it be a show for a moment, until the man looks up at him from the bed, legs spread and everything on perfect display and tells him to make me think about nothing but you and his gaze darkens, his body aching to get a move on.

On a harsh exhalation, his breath trembling out of him, he quickly abandons the rest of his clothes - unlike Claude, he isn't wearing shoes and the rest is easily done away with. When he gets to his boxers, he pauses, meeting Claude's gaze across the distance and raising one eyebrow very slightly. ]


Mm. Maybe I'm in the market for one.

[ Without further ado, he drops his boxers as well, baring himself completely. He gives Claude a chance to look - because why wouldn't he, Jean Louis is certainly looking his fill the other way - before he gets on the bed as well. His cock feels heavy, unusually so, against his belly and he realises he actually hasn't had a hard-on for a year, either, imagine that. There are many strange firsts tonight and it's actually a bit concerning that he hadn't considered that beforehand.

It's sheer luck, probably, that he's doing this with Claude and not someone he'd have to throw out within minutes at best. That would have been a story they could tell, presumably, and whilst gossip isn't as dangerous as some people think, it's annoying when it happens out of sync with your own planning.

On his hands and knees, he balances with his arms on either side of Claude's body and crawls up, foregoing his cock for now and bending his neck to lick a fat trail up the middle of his chest, all the way to his left collarbone. From there, he mouths his way up the side of his neck until he finds his lips again, going straight for them and pushing inside, wanting to reconnect, to melt them together. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ It goes to his head - quickly; the sense of physical proximity, of having another person so close, a person who doesn't feel dangerous in any way but strong, regardless. For some reason, by some obscure, inexplicable logic, it's possible to be one without the other. It's nothing that he knows on a personal level, of course, but he sees it sometimes, in others. Strength. No danger.

His nervous system is choking on itself now, the stress of the past year searching desperately for purchase because fear wants to confirm itself, always, and right now he's going in the distinctively opposite direction. He wants Claude. He wants to have him, to let him have him in return and it feels like something they're both re-learning, though they don't know each other's stories. It's an instinctual sort of knowledge, not unlike the feeling you get when you look in a mirror and know with absolute certainty that you're looking at yourself. So as he moves down, kissing his way across Claude's broad chest, no chest hair, just soft, smooth skin, he can feel the fear being pushed back into its proper place.

It's exhilarating.

Claude runs his hands up his sides, his touch warm. As his fingers run over the deeper scar tissue on his shoulder blade (completely, utterly annoying, that those absolute idiots couldn't even do what they did without fucking up, Eastern European quality check right there), his body twitches lightly, particularly the muscles in his left upper arm. The nerves in that area are strange. Claude's fingers feel gentle and warm, regardless. He closes his eyes briefly, breathing in, taking in the other man's movements beneath him, the rise and fall of his chest. This is now. And the rest looks so small from where they're standing now, so tiny, that in a moment or two they'll probably have to strain to see it.

He re-focuses, finds Claude's other nipple - sadly neglected until now - and leans down, giving it a couple of good licks. His body tastes heavily of salt and his cock jerks in response. Mm. They can be non-cannibalistic together, can't they? Shifting, he places another row of kisses down the middle of Claude's chest, moving down, feeling the muscles in his midriff beneath his lips. Further down, Claude's hard cock brushes against the underside of his throat whenever he moves in a certain way - trapped, still, beneath his briefs. About to reach for his underwear, on an impulse, he looks up from what he's doing, hands stilling against the other man's hips, intent on catching his eyes and not completely certain why, exactly, that is.

Something tells him he should. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh, yes. That. Under normal circumstances, he never has unprotected sex - even with Emilia, they'd had an open relationship and consequently, frequent testing had not been enough. He shifts onto his knees fully, his gaze flickering downwards. Claude's cock is visibly leaking in his briefs and he licks his lips before he can think about it. He could have, without. Tonight, they both could have made that jump, though it's a stupid risk to run and something that's a bit beneath them, he thinks. Yes, that's why he looked up. He doesn't want them degraded, not Claude and not himself. There's been enough of that.

Nodding, he rolls off him to crouch by the side of the bed, reaching for a seemingly random place on the bedframe close to the head of the bed. As his fingers skirt over one specific spot, a hidden compartment opens. It's small, containing a few chargers, some loose, unwrapped pills (street-bought morphine, he should probably get rid of those, actually) and yes, packs of condoms and lube. Grabbing what he came for, he shuts the compartment and gets back on the bed, taking care not to knee Claude anywhere unfortunate as he takes his place between his legs once more. ]


So, Claude. [ He looks down at the other man, smiling slightly, one eyebrow quirking upwards. ] This is a good time for you to tell me what you'd like.

[ He opens the condom (tasteless, thankfully, why the fuck would you want your cock to taste like strawberries or vanilla or whichever?) and sits back om his haunches, his own cock hard against his stomach still. It's honestly hard enough that his balls are starting to ache but he's a patient man, he wants most, not fastest. He folds one hand gently over the bulge in Claude's briefs - much too gently, he knows, to be satisfying in any way at this point - and rubs it slowly, just feeling him out again, feeding himself on a tactile level on top of the lovely visual he's already getting just by being here. By having Claude in his bed.

It's hard to say how they got here, really. It just happened. From one moment to the next, like stepping out of one reality and into another. The light from the aquarium shimmers across Claude's chest and lower abdomen, making his skin seem light. Otherworldly.

He hasn't believed in fairy tales for a long, long time. ]

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