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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He can feel Claude looking down at him, there's something about having eyes on you that's impossible to ignore when you make your living by being seen, heard and opposed. Before that, there were other reasons to pay attention. Jean Louis doesn't look back at him, letting him have whatever contemplations he might have to himself until he chooses to share them, if he ever does. In all cases, it's very doubtful he'll ever tell Claude the truth - after all, it's physical evidence of ties to a very different reality, ties that are lucrative but ultimately... unacceptable. Not to him, obviously, but they walk different worlds in that respect, him and Claude. And in certain places, there will be barriers.

Claude's hips buck, his cock pushing up against the roof of Jean Louis' mouth and he can sense the impatience running through the other man's muscles, straining beneath his hand, straining to go. Yes. What matters now is what they know, now. He strokes Claude's hip, his fingers slipping down to the soft skin of his upper thigh.

Then, slowly, he looks up at him. Catches the fight in his gaze, his willingness to follow along even when all his instincts are telling him that he wants to fly, now. It'll be a shame, really, to keep anchoring him. Eyebrows lifting minimally, he folds his palm over Claude's lower abdomen, not holding him down as much as supporting him, takes a deep breath and relaxes his throat. He's good at it - has been, for several years.

Eyes falling shut once more, he frowns slightly in concentration, keeps a hold on the condom with his other hand and lowers himself over Claude's cock, angling the other man and shifting himself to accommodate the stretch that follows once the head starts pressing against the small opening to his throat. He lets it. Uses his weight to sink down, down, and the head feels enormous, like something that couldn't possibly fit within him. It's a lie, like many other perceived limitations in life - relaxed, still, and unafraid he feels it pop, slipping into his throat and stopping the flow of air to his lungs.

When he pulls back this time, it feels like there's a giant hole left there, something that needs filling out as fast as possible. So he lets Claude slip out about halfway before he takes him back down, just as far. He can feel tears pressing at the corners of his eyes which is fine. Let his body give.

So Claude can have what he's offered. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Mm, and Claude lets him take him there. It becomes clear very fast that he isn't used to this treatment - when Jean Louis takes him down the whole way, he can feel the other man's muscles tense up and then, he's clearly fighting for control, not pushing down as he could, if he wanted to, but hanging on for dear life. He's such a decent man, Claude. He'll choose decency over selfishness even in this and Jean Louis immediately decides that if they ever do this again, he'll push him in the other direction. Help him take what he deserves.

For now, though, he'll happily accept the feel of the other man climaxing deep within him after only a few slides of back and forth, his cock pulsing in the condom, Claude's hand tracing his throat and feeling himself. He lets him, keeping himself still until he can feel his vision starting to blacken around the edges from lack of air - actually fainting with a cock lodged in your throat sounds inadvisable. Blinking tears from his eyes, he takes a firmer grip on the edge of the condom and pulls back, the head popping free from within his throat harshly and making him see stars for a split-second. Letting Claude's cock slip from his mouth, he leans down and rests his forehead against the inside of the other man's thigh, taking in one controlled breath after the other.

He's so hard that he feels he could come just by sitting here a little while longer, breathing Claude in. From this angle, he can smell his arousal, his cock and his skin, so clearly. He's got his other hand curved against Claude's stomach still, though he's released the condom, leaving the other man to dispose of it. The imprint of his cock feels like a brand inside his throat, deeply personal and permanent, the way these things are when people become more than just nameless strangers. He's had a lot of the latter in his life, not too many others.

Claude Bérubé.

Yes, the name will linger. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He regains his breath quickly and simultaneously, his arousal grows steadfastly more acute until all he can really focus on is how incredibly hard he is, how much his balls ache. His throat feels like an extension of that, the idea of Claude's cock having carved its own pattern into his body only adding to the heat in his abdomen. He shifts, running one, stiff hand through his hair and settling the strands sloppily along his scalp while Claude disposes of the condom and holds out his arm for him. Come, he says, an echo from earlier in the evening and Jean Louis looks at him, considering.

He realises he could ask for mostly everything. Oddly, the thought actually makes him slightly anxious and he frowns, unable to decode the whys and whats of that particular problem right now but unwilling to disregard the feeling behind it. He could take advantage of Claude like this. He could ask for anything. He could fuck him, maybe, and carve him out in turn, but something about that thought feels wrong. He doesn't want to create distance or push Claude into a position that makes him less, he wants to be... careful with him. Whatever that means.

In a flash, he remembers something that doesn't really have a place in this situation - a German book of fairy tales, something he inherited from his grandmother, old and tattered. It's on a shelf in his apartment somewhere. He doesn't understand why he's even kept it, truthfully, so he's stopped looking at it when he passes by the shelf in question and usually, he doesn't think about it.

He has kept it, though. It has moved with him from house to house, from the institution to his very first, dingy flat and somehow, it's still here.

Fingers twitching against the sheets, he looks down, eyes narrowing briefly. I want you to give me a part of you, says Claude, his arms open in invitation and suddenly, he realises that he doesn't know how to be properly careful with him. Fear and convenience. Empathy.

Wordlessly, he shifts closer and takes all he can from Claude's invitation; he slips into his grip until they're pressed up against each other, front to front, his hard cock lodged between their bodies. He can feel Claude's, too, against his thigh, flaccid now but warm. Familiar. Reaching up, he puts his hand against the side of Claude's face, another mirror, another echo. When he speaks, his voice is raw: ]


Like this.

[ He shuts his eyes, leans in and kisses him. It's a slow kiss and his lips feel oversensitive and swollen but he doesn't hurry it up or try to turn it into something it isn't. Instead, he steals Claude's breath, his taste, the feel of his tongue against his own, pushing into him and retracing his steps.

That, at least, feels like solid ground. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-10-15 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Claude takes him in and returns the kiss, mouth open and pliant, patient. The need for more grows even stronger and he groans into the other man's mouth, shifting against him while Claude breaks the kiss briefly to slick up his hand. It's a very short break indeed, seconds at best, because Jean Louis dives right back in at the same time as Claude, meeting him midway and letting him go at his own pace. He just wants to be here, in him, he doesn't particularly care how fast they go or how hard. Breathing shakily through his nose, he stays like that as Claude's slick fingers close around his cock - then, he shudders, the sudden onslaught of stimulation going straight to his blood. He twists slightly in Claude's grip, thrusting upwards, meeting his strokes with his own pace. It's not fast or evenly paced; it's just him, searching for that hand, the friction of his palm, and combined with the warmth of his mouth it takes him less than a dozen thrusts before he comes, his orgasm surging through him like electricity.

He stiffens at it, breaking the kiss and pushing his forehead into Claude's shoulder instead, eyes screwing shut as he feels his body take over from him for the first time since they hung him up in that warehouse. He'd drifted then, like he used to drift when he was young. This time, he stays rooted within himself and the wave of pleasure makes him groan (it's too high-pitched, it's a whine, not a groan but he doesn't think about it, he just hides it away in the darkness between Claude's neck and his collarbone).

Though he probably should let the other man breathe, he folds his arm around his waist instead because a part of him can't bear the thought of separation, the idea that once this ends, it ends. He doesn't want to be left with the traces of it in his body and nothing else, he doesn't want the emptiness and shadows of his apartment. He can, of course, if he has to. He can deal. He's done so ever since Emilia left, ever since Vincent left.

It's fine but it isn't.

His orgasm settles gradually in his limbs, a slow, familiar type of heaviness. He can feel Claude's chest rising and falling against his chin and before he knows it, he's tempering his own breathing towards that pace, up and down, back and forth.

Back and forth. ]