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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-11-12 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Claude's footfalls are familiar now, comfortably so. As soon as the elevator door closes, the apartment changes, as it has done since the very first time the other man stepped foot inside it. The loneliness retreats into the corners, into the walls. The silence breaks, gently.

With a half-smile, he turns to regard Claude in the doorway. He's dressed casually - jeans, a loose-fitting shirt - and like a side-note, he remembers how drunk the other man was last night. He must be quite hung-over today and all the same, here he is, having driven more than three hours. Jean Louis takes one coffee, the other still half-finished, and walks over to him, holding it out. Here, it means, for your trouble.

He looks at him, his gaze traveling slowly up and down his body, taking in every small detail on repeat like he's been starving for him. He doesn't know. It's difficult, knowing what he's craving when he's in business mode, alert and consequently, prepared for everything. Sometimes, he wonders whether he'll be like that constantly one day, a chronic condition like his shoulder and the way his mind seemingly rushes, skittish. Fish-like, almost, dodging instinctually without truly seeing anything but the clear path ahead of you. Whether one day, that'll be all he'll have to trade back to Claude. It feels like the kind of thought that ought to make him at least a little sad.

The blankness makes it hard to tell. ]


Oh, I'm certainly surprised. [ His eyes narrow a fraction. ] Is everything alright?
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-11-12 04:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Claude takes the cup and trades him - a goose? Jean Louis stares at it for a couple of seconds, at the small, naive shape of it. It's sitting on Claude's palm like it owns the whole hand, it's tiny beak raised in challenge. The lights from the ceiling reflect along its surface, making it glittery. Distantly, he wonders just how many of those the other man's bought. It's a like a trick every time, Claude, pulling one of those out of his hat, yet another new handful of magic. Swallowing, he takes the goose, fingertips brushing over Claude's hand briefly. Too briefly.

A part of him wants to grab onto his wrist and hold on like they're hanging off a ledge somewhere far above the ground. ]


You didn't need to be.

[ He turns his back on Claude and walks slowly past the kitchen area. He takes the now-finished cup of coffee from the coffee maker and heads for the small nook by the windows, the place that has soon become synonomous with Claude in his mind. There's something about this particular little space that seems to carry him within itself in a way that the rest of the apartment can't quite manage; then again, it's just a lot of empty space, first of all. This warehouse. Both floors. It wasn't designed for Claude's gentleness. He speaks without looking back at the other man, putting the goose on the shelf next to the big-nosed witch. ]

I'm well-protected at all times. [ A glance to the side. His left eyebrow wants to quirk up but doesn't quite manage the entire journey - it becomes a sort of half-waggle, an expression in-between. ] Unlike you.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-11-12 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He pauses, still watching the other man as he seats himself. I trust you're not gonna do anything to hurt me says Claude and for a second, he gets immediately angry, enough for his left hand to clench into a rigid fist. Obviously he didn't mean... but of course, his mind adds, what he's doing is a potential threat to Claude at all times. They'd threatened Emilia, even if there'd been strategy and nothing else behind the words. Illusions, another kind of magic, much more closely related to lies and deceit. He unfurls his hand slowly and turns towards him. In his other hand, the coffee smells like normalcy, like any evening after a long day's work. I trust, Claude says.

He's not a foolish man, Claude. He's seen enough not to be. 

He knows well enough to be frightened when there's something to be frightened of. ]


I'm not.

[ His voice sounds far-away. Looking at the other man for a long moment, he finally moves away from the shelf and seats himself opposite him, bringing them to eye-level and it does something to his nervous system, makes him feel like there's another bit of distance, bridged. Unthinkingly, he shifts closer on his seat until he's sitting on the edge of it. Like this, their knees are about a hand's width apart.

I trust.

His voice hardens. ]


No one will hurt you. Not me, not anyone else. [ Pause. Less harshly, the barest tint of humour slipping in: ] Aside from the occasional goose, that is.
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-11-15 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He sets the coffee on the small table near the window. It's not that he can't drink it; right now, it feels like he could probably down anything, trying to re-create the balance between outside and inside. Claude shows him the big bruise on his neck, a marking courtesy mostly of his own stupidity and there's something so sweet and ridiculous about it (innocent, like something you do just because life makes it happen for you because that's the kind of surprises you get in the world Claude inhabits) and when he tells him to kiss it better, for a few seconds he almost can't breathe for the sheer sense of discrepancy. Only hours earlier, he'd been meeting with a man in the backroom of a butcher's shop in Grund, talking checkpoints and timetables. The man is a cop. A cop who's going to ensure that the path through City remains open and uncontested for the Dutch.

In less than three months, the mob is going to kill that cop.

Then, there'll be another person rising in the ranks and from there, they'll have a new board set, new pieces to move, always one step ahead.

With Claude sitting there in front of him, that world - Jean Louis' world, the world he knows with deep, nearly visceral intimacy - feels fake. Like an illusion. ]


Claude.

[ He sounds breathless because he is. It's choking him, somehow, this nameless thing. Wetting his lips, he looks down at the floor, then back up at Claude with his stupid marks and his sweet smile, small, careful, like he understands what he's looking at even though he couldn't possibly, he doesn't have the eyes for it. Slowly, he slips onto his knees on the carpet, breaking Claude's hold on his knee. It's not enough. As far as bridges go, it's little more than a line of rope. Instead, he shuffles into Claude's personal space, between his legs, and runs both hands up his knees, thighs. He looks up at him and stretches for him, folding one hand against the side of his neck and pulling him down (down, that's true, this way is down and to be very, very frank, Claude shouldn't even here, it's not down for him, it shouldn't be).

Then, he leans up and in, mouthing a path along the line of his jaw, over his neck. He's breathing too fast already; fuck, but right now, he wants to disappear within him. Any way he can, any way Claude will let him. ]
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[personal profile] nowheretowns 2023-11-17 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Claude runs his fingers through his hair, stroke after stroke, and the way it's going all over the place makes something in his chest tighten. Take me apart, he thinks but doesn't say, he wouldn't ever, you invite that kind of shit into your life, you might as well flop down onto your back and let them have a go at you. He thinks about the Netherlands, about Rotterdam and the smell of metal and ozone. The drugs, boxed and ready and his right-hand man (Ezio's, in truth) tasting it on the tip of his tongue. Buono, he'd said and waved his hand, joining Jean Louis moments later and waiting for his silent nod of approval. It was a good deal. It was even worth slashing a line down the middle of his country.

A part of him knows all of this.

But most of him knows Claude now, the smell of him, the warmth of his breath as he buries his nose against his temple and he wants that. He doesn't care about what he knows. He cares about what he wants. Groaning, he turns his head in turn and catches Claude's lips along with that small yes, his willingness. He presses into his mouth, filling him up, their tongues gliding together wetly and the feel of it isn't nearly enough but it's good, regardless, which is one of the greatest contrasts between Claude's reality and his own. In his world, nothing's good enough. Nothing's enough.

In Claude's, even a small percentage of something greater feels immense.

He runs his free hand up between Claude's legs, curving his palm over his crotch and feeling him out beneath his jeans. Yes, he said. Yes, presumably, to whatever the fuck this is, Jean Louis' mind speeding by like a coked-up chicken, but not necessarily to everything it implies. You can't presume with him. You mustn't.

Claude is a treasure.

He pulls out of the kiss, sinks onto his knees more fully and tilts his head upwards, catching the other man's gaze. ]


Let me suck you off.

[ Can I. He doesn't quite manage to actually ask. It's not that kind of night. ]